hectic life of me!

so i have been going through a lot of life changes the last few weeks that have kept me very busy but i am here tonight and am taking a blogger break!

I HAD A SMALL VICTORY TODAY!

the levi jeans that i have that i normally have to jump up and down, swear, jump up and down some more, throw myself on the bed and squirm with my foot on the wall to even try to get them done up....you get the idea! lol well today i pulled them out of the dryer and with one little hop

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzip!!

THEY DID UP!!!!

I still am stuck at 220.6 and have been doing what girlgonehealthy tells us not to do and have been stress eating a lot :(

the weather is getting better i think i need to walk my ass off! Help the planet by leaving the car in the drive way too!

Trying to figure out how to keep from the nibbling on the bad stuff and just get back to it!

I just need a get away from all this stress!

the end lol

I'm sorry for the delay

It seems that not only blog posts get ignored when you have a LOT going on in your life.

I am sorry for that. I am going through some changes in my life that have me very busy and preoccupied and TOTALLY stressed out

I have managed not to gain any weight but i have cheated. it seems so easy in the midst of running around like a chicken with your head cut off to stop at the vending machine for 2 oatmeal cookies for 50 cents

I know i have said that its ok to have treats in moderation but it seems with me treat = GUILT

I feel like I dont get enough of something too. I have to figure it out. I have been having headaches and sometimes feel shaky.

I am exhausted lately and will be super busy for the next couple more weeks but i will make an effort to share my thoughts and feelings with you all. I am down to 220.8 that is 13.2 pounds lost now since January 25th and in total its 59.2 pounds down from my heaviest of 280

I have no direction in this blog sorry but i wanted to put something down.

I am going to think of a new topic and spend some time really blogging

peace out

slump

i guess i have been in a bit of a slump since the easter candy disaster

you know i am back now tho!! I have a few things on my mind.

1) is it ok to eat treats or things not really on your diet but in low doses?
2) does depriving yourself of said food treats cause you to finally give in but with a vengance and bindge on the treat??
3) WHY IS GOING OUT TO A RESTAURANT SO DAMN HARD! I went over the menu yesterday with a fine tooth comb before finally just having a turkey sandwhich on whole wheat with a side salad.

there is creamy sauces and cheese and breaded coatings on like EVERYTHING. I felt so bad for taking so long but it really was frustrating.

I did have a great time out with a few friends but it seemed a lot harder then it should have been. I feel like I am not easily intigrating into a normal world. Its easier to do portion control and meal preps and snacks at home.

I guess thats the wall i have run into the last week or so. i have been super busy so getting any work outs have been at the times when i am far too tire (yes i know i need a plan)

I NEED TO FIGURE OUT HOW HEALTHY LIVING AND EATING FIT INTO A NORMAL WORLD

where the hell is the biggest loser ranch when i need it???

week 2 weigh in

so the easter bunny came and went so my weight loss was not so spectacular.

week 2 weighs me in at 224

next week i hope for a bigger number......i feel slightly discouraged and disappointed in my lack of will power over the treats and chocolate

insert a sad face here

wow! what a busy weekend. work work work

the easter bunny is evil

spreading his evil chocolaty goodness everywhere you turn

ugh

cheat fest is OVER

IT IS TIME TO OWN MY OWN LIFE

STOP LETTING SWEETS AND JUNK HAVE POWER OVER ME

I NEED HELP!!!

How do you get a chance to get your work out in when your life gets busy and work keeps changing your schedule around on you???

I am trying to keep eating right but gosh i havent worked out in 4 days now.

I know take the stairs at work or take a walk on lunch break

ANY SUGGESTIONS?? i am starting to feel lazy but it really is hard to work out before work and then i get home at like 11 some nights

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllp!