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age: 34 height 5 foot 3 (nearly) starting weight: 230

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Watch out for the "Weight Loss Saviour's"

I had a conversation with a friend this last week and we were discussing how frustrating it is when you encounter what i call a "weight loss saviour"

You know....we all encounter them. Those friends, co-workers, family members, gym employees. The one's who feel that they have somehow contributed to your weight loss successes.


Now don't get me wrong, there are some friends and supporters who are wonderful encourager's and cheer leaders that is not my point.

I have had a couple of weight loss saviours in my life. When i first started my journey i weighed 280 pounds. i took a trip to mexico and it was when i got the pictures back and saw just how big i was. it was then that i knew it was time to start losing weight.

I lived with a guy friend at the time who was always pestering me about reading labels and going to the gym (which i may add i was doing 3 times a week with or without his nagging). Long story short we had a huge fight and i moved out. He said when he asked me to move in he thought i was a poor pathetic fat girl with no friends and i should basically kiss the ground he walked on because he made me what i was and if it was not for him i would not have lost the weight.

I need to stop right here and say:
I WAS THE ONE WHO DRAGGED MY FAT ASS TO THE GYM
I WAS THE ONE WHO NEARLY DIED ON THE STAIR MACHINE
I WAS THE ONE WHO GAVE UP A LOT OF BAD FOODS
I WAS THE ONE WHO SWAM LAPS FOR AN HOUR 3 TIMES A WEEK
I OWE NO ONE FOR MY WEIGHT LOSS BUT MYSELF

I want to shout it from the roof tops.

IT IS TO NO ONE ELSE'S CREDIT IF YOU ARE LOSING WEIGHT!!!!!

I don't feel like i'm getting my words out right but it's so important that you OWN YOUR OWN SELF AND SUCCESS!!!!!

please do not let anyone steal your pride
please do not let anyone make you feel like you owe them anything

keep sweating your ass off
keep pushing yourself a little harder
keep trying

and if you feel like you messed up keep kicking your own ass!! Don't let anyone else do that for you!


Monday, June 21, 2010

rocky road and no i dont mean ice cream

so im not gonna sugar coat it

i have been going through a rough time and have given in and fed the pain

im not going to get into all the craptastic details

but im really struggling to slap a smile on my face

which in turn makes it harder to care enough about me to eat healthy

i hate that eating is a lot of times.....the majority of times....an emotional thing

how do i suck it up and get over that part of it

why is diet and exercise so complicated

i dont have the energy to try to figure out calories or fat content or all that :(